This is how I'm messed up about men.

How I am messed up about men....where could I begin. I really didn't mean to make that rhyme, but honestly, I could go on forever about how I am messed up about men. It's unreal. I am intelligent enough to know that I continuously go down this path of self destructive choices that lead me to once again reject every man I've ever known only to wish I could meet "the man" that is "the one." Does he exist? Who knows. Basically, since I am not an avid blogger, I know that I don't have any readers, at least not any regular ones, so I could potentially use this site as my own personal dating diary, or drama diary, or lack thereof. Names will be changed or omitted on the one rare opportunity that someone I know would log on.
So, I live in a world where I am always in a constant battle with my own mind. I perpetuate these cycles that I know are self-defeating, yet I don't stop them. Now, that's not to say that I am crazy, because I don't think that I am that different from any other woman out there, but I may be a bit more extreme. Or maybe I just think about it more. There is a reason that I majored in the mental health field---I have a lifetime of experience in analyzing problems and contemplating alternative courses of action. I spend all of my time helping others, but can never truly help the one person that needs me the most.

Guess I'm not so smart after all.

I don't think I really understand how all the "extra perks" that go along with blogging work. Like Pay Per Post and such. I'm a bit confused. And really, the sad thing is that I am a smart girl. I have a master's degree for crying out loud and I cannot figure this out! Frustrating.

How a child's mind works?

So, I got to spend some time with my nephew this weekend and it was so exciting how much he talks to me and about me. It makes me feel really special that this little 2 year old would be so bonded with me. Of course, I'm no mom or dad, now they are top-notch in the special category, but I know that I'm in his top 10, if not his top five. Those are the little things in life that make all the bad stuff we deal with from day to day more bearable.
The way his mind works is just amazing and although all people say this about their children (or nieces and nephews), but I really think mine are geniouses. Kyle told his mom, "That's Aunt Nanie's car. I tink maybe we ought to wash it." Yes, I left out the H in think on purpose, because he is so dutchy and it's just cute. But really, what a very unique thing for a 2 year old to say.
Of course, I also have two other nephews and I am very excited for the day when they start to talk more. Everything they do is already very cute, but it's so facsinating to try and think of how a child's mind works. While we were shopping, I wandered off by myself and Kyle said, "Mommy, where'd aunt Nanie go (which sounds more like doe)?" Heather said, "I don't know, did you lose her?" Kyle replied he didn't lose me, that his mother did and they continue this argumentative-type game back and forth as he does with anything. However, when Kyle spotted me he proudly bosted, "There's aunt Nanie! I find her." Precious.

Permanent residence????

So, I have been contemplating the idea of trying to buy a house for some time now, but it seems that something always keeps coming up. Like now, I am saving for a trip to the Bahamas for a wedding. Not even mine. So I keep asking myself, is it really a good idea to be spending all this money on trips and stuff when you want to buy a house? Is this really good investment thinking? But, on the other side, I also know that this is the time when I should be out enjoying life, while I am not tied down to a morgage or children. However, I know that it's a really good market for home buyers right now, that I should jump on it. But then, I think...is my credit going to be good enough? Am I going to be able to afford this? Probably not. Ugh! What's a girl to do? The agony!

The greatest thing since sliced bread...

So, in this reality show, in-your-face, family forgotten line-up of television shows we have these days, it is finally nice to see something that does not have anything to do with winning a prize or who's gonna have to be voted off/out or eating disgusting mounds of slippery guts. I have found the television show that is entertaining and has substance. It's the next drama that can actually be funny and I'm thinking that so far it is comparable to the first episodes of Grey's Anatomy. The only difference is that this show has been able to entertain me for three solid weeks now without having to have multiple extravagant sex scenes. (Not to mention that I have watched the reruns of the show, which I never do!) I am very impressed!!! And, as someone with many family members or friends currently or previously in the military, I have to say that it has touched on some very significant issues so far. I love this show!!! Just a little free product promotion from me, because I am the person who has never watched Lifetime Television in her life, and now, I'm addicted!

Who knew?

Have you seen the new creation called "The World" off the coast of Dubai??? This is a phenomenon that just amazes me! They have created these islands to look like the world. Man-made islands!!! What??? I would just like to know who was sitting around and one day said....Hmm. I'm bored and I have oodles of money. Let's see if we can create a land mass in an ocean. I mean, it takes volcanoes so much time to form new islands, so let's just speed the process up a bit. Have we gone too far with this? Sure they're nice, but we are talking about completely altering the world as we know it. And, how is it that I have never really heard about this before? Am I living under a rock? What? Wow!

At my job...

At my job I have ran into many different things. It's amazing the stuff you see and do, but this one kind of tops the cake for me so far. Someone brought a knife in to my office. Why? you may ask.....because it had special memories. I think this beats the time that someone stole our candy bucket. Crazy!